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Thursday, November 24, 2011

Home Sweet Home!

Dear friends & relatives,
I was discharged yesterday at 7pm. I was overjoyed and can't stop praising God for his healings and bringing me back home safely from the darkness. I woke up today with a good rest on my comfortable bed that I missed for 13 nights. My nerve pain still disturbing me but it is getting better as I spend more time in engulfing God's word.
Today I had spent a great time with my Auntie from Sabah sharing the Word of God, she told me she is here for me because of God's devine appointment, I feel so honoured and blessed with a world that is filled with love. She has shared with me about 10 commandments today, I could the feel the love, the goodness from God is pouring into this house. We are going to continue with more Words tomorrow. It's exciting though!
Tomorrow I will be receiving my 10 years service award from Sunway Group organized at the Sunway Resort Hotel. Looking back my career history, I have joined Sunway in 1991 and today I should be receiving 20 years but because I detoured after 7 years to join a non Sunway Company so I lost 7 years and 3 years while I was with the company. I made a big round but still came back to Sunway after 10 years. So that is why I lost 10 years.
These few days I will be occupied with a lot of preparation with my Japan trip, visa application, shopping for winter clothings, etc.
Blessing!

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

What a long Stay?

Dear friends & relatives,
What a long stay? I was warded in Sunway Hospital since 10th Nov, due to shivering fever. After a few rounds of blood test, it was confirmed that I have an infection at my chemo port. I was on antibiotic non-stop for the past 13 days. I was on antibiotic trial for 6 days before I was put to the right antibiotic so Doctor did not allow me to be discharged yesterday even I have fully recovered physically. sigh!! When will I be discharge? Let's hear from Doctors again today.
It's a real long stay!! 13 days, 14 days or more?? I can't imagine how big is the bill. Apparently I have applied for home leave, so I will be at home from 6-9pm for my shower & dinner.
Since it is confirmed that my chemo port has infection so Doctors has decided to remove it, but the question is when? My last chemo drug done on 10th Nov was Avastin so it is recommended to wait for 3 weeks before any surgery to avoid excess bleeding and delayed wound healing. So I have to wait till 1st week of December.
I have a plan to go for HITV treatment in Japan and now is waiting for Japan's Doctor to design my treatment protocol then firm up the schedule. Before this is done, I just have to wait and get ready my passport and visa to Japan. The duration of the treatment is expected to be 3 weeks. If my treatment plan starts in mid December I will be able to see the Christmas & New year celebration in Tokyo. This will be something that excites me at this moment.
Ogenki Desu ka?
Mata ashita.
Ai Woon

Monday, November 21, 2011

Family Challenges

Since August, my health has not been stable, I have to cope with new symptom attack every now and then. When I thought I have a world of my own and could just focus on myself, managing my symptoms, pains, taking care of myself only. Sometimes situation just does not allow me to do so. Living in a family make up of people, I have to learn to accept comment that is pleasing and unpleasing to me.
Even if I am viewed to be a burden to the family members, I have to live on!! Even if I was told not to be dependent on others, I have to find help from friends, I have to live on!!
When a persons seem to be very close to you, doing a lot of things for you, whether the person do it with their heart or not, you can feel it. That's God's gift. So when we really want to treat a person well, we have to make sure we do it wholeheartedly without expecting a return then only we will get blessing from God.
In the midst of my health challenges I have to learn to deal with family issue positively by putting God's word in the center of our communication, showing no doubt to the person's feeling, thanking them for what they have done for me. And I have to spend a little more time communicating with them, pampering them in order to maintain this relationship and keeping the family peaceful & harmonized before I could focus on myself in the day to day healing therapy.
Sometimes I just wonder why I don't have to spend much time talking to my mother and yet she knows all the details about my problems and my needs. In every situation she will come in to solve our problems , fulfill our needs and she even tell me my problem is also her problem, she will help in all aspects, I am so touched and felt loved. Lately she even try to find a story everyday about healing just to motiviate me. How great is a mother's love!! Her word is always pleasing, comforting, caring and loving. I love me ma.
Blessings!

Saturday, November 5, 2011

An Traumatic Experience!

Dear Friends & Relative,

I am back in action again! After a few new challenge that I have to manage and overcome.

I would like to share this traumatic experience we had last week. I had an attack of breathlessness. I was not able to breath normally even after half an hour of gasping for air, I was dizzy, sensation of choking, it was an life threatening experience! After I was rushed to hospital by ambulance, I was put on nebulizer ever 4 hourly and antibiotic drip every 6 hourly for 3 days.
Doctors has advised me to bring along inhaler every where I go and breath correctly when there is an attack. I have to be on nebulizer twice a day until my mucus in the lung is lesser. So far so good, I have been doing well these few days.

The experience that I have learned from this traumatic situation is to stay calm by calling to Lord Jesus God for help, otherwise I will just let go and die within minutes. It was so chaotic when I saw my husband rushing to make phone calls, could not get the person, keep trying another perrson, holding the chest in pain, my son was blank, my daughter was crying, that situation trigger me to be stay strong, calm & assist in managing the chaos while I am gasping for breath, waiting for ambulance to come.

This shortness of breath happened to me is due to the mass of lung tumors that produce excessive mucus that could have block the airways, bronchus or the main windpipe (trachea). When I had this attack I was coughing and there was a patch of mucus blocking my trachea and I felt total block of air going into my lung. The correct way of rescue is to use Ventolin inhaler to puff in then try to do deep breathing, repeat the puff if it did not improve. Once the breathing is improved, switch to do nebulizer using combivent, breath in through the mouth if the blockage is too serious.

I have done some research today to know more about the shortness of breath and how to manage it properly when there is an attack.
Shortness of breath
Shortness of breath happens when you are not taking in enough oxygen and your lungs try to draw in more air to make up for it. About half of all the people with advanced cancer have this symptom at some time during their illness.Difficulty breathing is called ‘dyspnoea’ (pronounced dis-nee-a).
How breathing work?
When we breathe in through our nose or mouth we draw air into our lungs through the windpipe. The windpipe divides into two airways. These are called the right and left bronchus. One goes to each lung. These further divide into smaller tubes and at the end of these are small air filled sacs called alveoli. It is here that the oxygen we breathe in passes into the bloodstream. The alveoli also take the waste gas, carbon dioxide, from the blood so that we can breathe it out.
When we breathe normally, we use the diaphragm (pronounced dye-a-fram) and the muscles around our ribs. The diaphragm is a large sheet of muscle that separates your chest cavity from your abdomen. When we breathe in, it tightens up and pulls downwards, making more space in the chest. The muscles around the ribs also make more space by pulling the ribcage up and out. The lungs expand to fill the space and air rushes into them.If you are short of breath, you may also be using muscles in your shoulders and upper chest to help you breathe. You normally use these muscles for heavy lifting and they tire very easily. So breathing in this way can make you more out of breath and drain your energy.
Who gets breathless
The people most likely to have breathing problems are people with lung cancer, mesothelioma or cancer that has spread to the lung. But other types of cancer can also cause breathing difficulties. Being short of breath can be very uncomfortable and frightening. It can make you feel very anxious and panicky, which often makes it even harder to catch your breath.People with cancer can become breathless for many different reasons. Once your doctor finds out the cause of your breathing problems there is usually some type of treatment that will help you.
How breathlessness can affect you
Being short of breath can have a big impact on how much you can do each day. You may be too breathless to shower, cook, or even take a mouthful of food. People with lung cancer sometimes say they can't do the most basic daily tasks, and find not being able to get their breath very frightening.
Common Symptoms
•Dizziness
•Feeling faint
•Sensations of smothering
•Numbness or tingling sensations
•Sensations of choking
•Rapid heartbeat