I had two dreams!

Today is Friday, a week is almost gone, I have not submitted any new post since last Saturday. I was a bit tired due to the side effect of my new chemo drug, I lost my appetite again, feeling fatigue, no mood to eat. All these has gone since yesterday and I was busy doing some house work, and happily re-arranged all the cups & glasses in my kitchen cabinet. Unfortunately that little house work has stretched my back, I was extra careful and slow, somehow I don't know why the severe back pain just attack me last night after my dinner, the pain is just like the last time. So I took some pain killers, able to sleep quite well even had able to have two dreams which I did not have for months coz' I did not sleep well. I woke up at 6am today due to the disturbance of cough.

These 2 dreams were quite interesting and surprisingly I could remember it so clearly. The 1st dream I had was with Peggy Fan, my current ITSSC colleague which was also my colleague 20 years ago, she was also my 2nd sister's primary school's classmate. In the dream, I was having a trip with her back to my hometown, Kuching and I brought her back to visit a long house, we were having fun running around the long house, peeping in every houses and seeing every interesting things in that long house.

The 2nd dream I had was with my close friend, Yin Mui which both my husband and me know her for more than 25 years, we used to stay in the same house before we get married. In the dream, we took a taxi to visit Dato Tan's wife, their house is very big but don't know why the surrounding of the house was full of machines and small workshops, we have to pass by a few workshops before we could reach their living hall. The living hall is very nice, big, antique design, with some staircase within the hall. Datin was alone at home, she gave us some vegetables, including 3 bitter gourds and some leafy veg, we were talking, talking non-stop like old friends' meeting. We were talking very long I guess, it was dark and Dato Tan came home in a rush, wanted to go out for a dinner appointment with Datin so we have to leave the place reluctantly with a lot of unfinished stories. The dream ended while we were catching a taxi to go home.

What are these two dreams appealing to me? I believe in the first dream, I miss my hometown and the trip to a long house, I brought my son once but had not brought my daughter there. For the second dream, I believe these two persons had help me in some where, in the same way recently.

Gasing Hill

It was a great experience to climb Gasing Hill this morning. My neighbourhood friend Shireen came to pick us (me & Amelia) up at 7am. Nice wheather with rising sun, fresh morning air (Saturday not many cars)..... here we come Gasing Hill, at 7: 20am!

To my surpise, there were already so many cars parked even way before the entrance, so we have to find a parking almost mile's away. There are a few entrances according to Shireen, so we took the easier one (not the main entrance) less steep and easier to walk.

We started the tracking at about 8am, the track is quite small meant for 2 persons, we can see from the picture below, as walk up I could feel my breathing is stretching when come to a slightly steep step so I have to take a very slow step to rest then do another step. Because I have to go slow so I could enjoy the real fresh air, the plant, the tree, the bird's singing...... It's so nice & cozy!!

Shireen were so caring watching every step I climb and waited for me to rest, finally we reached level 1 at 8:40am. I know my limit at this moment so I decided to stay at level 1 and waited for Shireen & Amelia to complete the tracking to the peak. We have met quite a few people in the Sunway Group including Mr Goh Hai Tong and Mr Wong Fook Chai.

I really enjoy the climb, the fresh air especially, I will be going again when my lung is fully recovered.

Exercise! Exercise!

Yesterday I did 1 hour's exercise and walked 3 rounds in the morning at the field near my house. In the evening 6pm, I decided to join Wee Ching for her daily walk at MPSJ so I managed to walk 5 rounds but Wee Ching was late due to her Seminar in KL. Hopefully I could see her today.

There are a lot of people at the MPSJ field, there is a group of people doing dancing with instructor, they looks quite fun, a lot of young people too doing running & jogging and of course some older ones like me doing brisk walking only.

Today I will pick up my daughter from tuition centre and bring her to MPSJ for the walk with me while meeting Wee Ching there.

Hmmm... I have a plan with a friend to climb Gasing hill on Saturday. I hope I could do it, looking forward to see how I would perform, I believe I can.

Cough & Lung Congestion Management

I am glad I am out this problem for at least 3 days now and I believe God has totally healed me. As I recalled, my lung congestion started to get serious sometime in early August where my cough is so frequent that whenever I open my mouth I will be coughing non-stop. So I actually have to drink warm water or have some tibits in my mouth in order to talk. The cough is getting more severe that I was finally hospitalized on 27th August due to high fever and shortness of breathe. I was on oxygen and nebulizer machines since after I was discharged from the hospital and I have to take 3 medicines to soften the phlegm in my lung in order to breath. The cough has caused pain to my chest, my back and everywhere that were related.

During these 2 months, I hardly have mood to do anything including eating, I was crying to God for healing and I even desperately kneeled down to pray a few times a day. Initially I was anxious wanted to get over with it by taking a lot of medications, patting my back to cough out the phlegm a few times a day until I strained my chest muscle that caused the pain that I could not move for a few days.

One day as I was praying I was guided by the holy spirit that I have to be patient and wait upon the healing. So I decided to drop the idea of healing but learning to live with the cough and I started do my deep breathing and relax, suddenly I acquire a skill that I could use the breathing rhythm to pull out the sputum from my lung and split it out naturally without much force or strength. Few days after doing this, I feel some improvement and one day I was busy and forgot to do any nebulization on that day, but to my surprise when I woke up the next day I felt that my lung was so cleared that I could breath loosely and never before I felt so good, I could breath in & out with so much of air. For more than 2 months I was not able to breath this way, it's amazing! Immediately I drop all my oral medications from that day onwards.

I believe the learning points here are:-

1. Be calm, be patient

2. Instead of rushing to get healed but learn to manage the problem

3. Always look for improvement to motiviate ourself to carry on

4. Miracle will come if we surrender our problem to the God and believe it is his will to heal us.

By the way, the warm ginger soup keep our lung warm and make us sleep better.

Hopes this post will be of help to those having long persistent cough.

God bless.

I have a good sweat today!

As usual I wake up at 6:30am in good health condition with a little cough, no more lung congestion. Finished with my morning prayer, take my supplement and walk to the park for an hour's exercise, and this time I am able to walk 3 rounds at the football field.

I had a good sweat! Feeling good!

My plan for today is to finish reading the 40 healing scriptures used by Dodie Osteen to overcome her cancer. After that I am going to select a few that speaks to my current condition then grow these seeds into my heart, meditate on it daily while waiting for my complete healing.

My new plan to receive comlete healing

Today I am in good health and in high spirit again, I decided to join the Cancer Support Group meeting in SIB Church KL. This group is organized by Shery Lim, a cancer survivor who has won the victory and now serving the God in this group called Elipizo. One of the Pastors from SIB Church was invited to share a topic of how to receive healing from the God, this topic has touched me and I have decided to set a new plan by following the guideline I learn today to walk the journey of healing with God. The steps are summarized as below:-

1. To believe it's God's will to heal our sicknesses

- Jehovah Rapha Ex 15:26

2. To use the Word of God as a healing tool

- Look for the (seed) healing scripture that speaks to our situation

- keep the word in our heart (saw the seed)

- believe the healing is in progress (believe the seed is growing, water the seed)

- Expect to reap what we saw (expecting the result of healing)

3. To believe the ways of God's healing by

- looking at the cross of Jesus attentively with expectation

I am putting this in my blog as a form of commitment to remind myself when ever I am not doing it, I hope my friends around will remind me as well.

Blessing.

It's another miracle!

Dear Friends,

I can't wait to write on this blog, I feel good today! Firstly I slept thru the night 7 hours without sleep pill!! I can breath so much better!! I can feel 50% of the lung congestion has gone. I tested myself walking up the stair 2 times today and the breathlessness has left so little that I can just manage it easily. And I have cut down my medication from 3 times to 2 times a day since yesterday.

Thank you God for this miraculous healing, thank you for directing me in managing the lung congestion.

Today is a bright sunny, I am going to have a good time. I am going to enjoy my sleep and spend at least 1 week to catch up with my sleep. which I had not been able to do so for months.

What happen these 2 days?

Dear friends,

Sorry to keep you suspended for 2 days, I receive a few sms and asked me why am I not writing blog.... thanks for the concern.

Last Friday morning I went for my weekly chemo drug (Erbitus) infusion, came back at about 4pm, quickly get some rest. I was worried about not sleeping well, I have not been able to sleep thru 6 hours for the past 1-2 month and for the past 1 week I hardly sleep thru 2 hours, I wake up every 1 hour due to shortness of breathe, it is so disturbing that I feel so restless. With prayer & God's mercy I have found a new way to due with this problem finally able to sleep 4 hours last night.

Today I had a good lunch, my blessed friend (Cindy) help me to get some fresh fish & chicken from the wet market and another blessed friend (Felicia) who has kindly transfer her maid to me to help me with the cooking. I have cooked all the delicious food that I was craving for and had a great lunch.

A world full of love! I am so blessed to have so many wonderful and helpful friends around me. For the past few weeks, a few of my neighnourhood friends has been sending food to me, offered cooking for me and my Cg leader cooked for me at least once a week.

All my dear friends & relatives in reading this blog, I just want to let you know that I am well now and able to do cooking on your own with the maid's help. Thank you so much for your help.

I am recovering very well every day, I feel better, energy level higher and eating more & more each day.

Thank you Lord Jesus for your mercies and healing upon me everyday! Give you praise & give thank.

May all of you be blessed with good health and happiness always.

I am back to my daily exercise routine!

As usual I can't sleep much due to the cough, I decided to start my daily exercise even if I am lacking of sleep, again at 7am, I make it to the park with stronger step this time. I finish the one hour exercise and continue to do a slow walk for 2 rounds (about 1.5km), I made it! It's a great acheivement for me.

I decided to continue this daily exercise routine from today onwards. I feel good & breathing improved after the exercise.

A Lovely Sunny Day

Today is a lovely sunny day! For those working in corporates, like me before... hardly have time to look at the sky or enjoy the beauty of the nature.

I am feeling well today, waiting to recover from my stubborn cough, I could not sleep well last night due to the cough, I will catch up with some sleep in the afternoon.

My two children are at home today, I am going to spend some quality time with them.

Mix Fruits smoothie surprise!

Today I have a mix fruits smoothie made by my 2 good friends (TLK & LCM) from Kuching, it just yummy! They came to my house to visit me and offered to do some cooking for me, so they started with a smoothie & it really appetized me. I believe I can eat a lot more for tonight's dinner.

I am blessed to have the privilege of many friends visiting me, praying for me due to of my temporary shortfall in health. I will be well & fit very soon.

Thank you all.

Ingredients for the smoothie:-

1. Banana

2. Strawberry

3. Kiwi fruit

4. water

My Lovely Friend

Today is a sunny bright day, I managed to walk out to the park 200m from my house for the 1st times after 2 weeks of being having breathlessness. At 7am, I took a slow step & managed to complete an hour of usual exercise with those aunties at the park. It's amazing! I thought I can't make it yet. I feel good after the exercise. Thank you God for providing me the strength.

After last week's episode, I feel so blessed to have a friend that is living so close to me & ever ready to come to my house for the first ring. She has nursed me patiently, calm me, reminder me, " go slow" , "relax" ...... she even carried me up from the chair when my pain was so severed that I could not even breath or swallow food. She was with me at home for 2 days and on the 3rd day she helped to wheel me to see Doctor in Sunway Hospital. She has a very special joyous smile, laughter and a very sweet voice (btw, she sings very well!). When ever I look at her I feel relax and influenced by her laughter too. I believe she is one of the medicine that makes me well so soon. Top secret..... at her age??? she still looks very pretty and there are men approaching her too.